Glad to be back, blogger friends...
I've done numerous blogs before. Detailing my life, my feelings, my telephone numbers and adresses. I've lost a lot of friends, I've come to some really low sinking/melting points, and I finally grew UP. I matured, I am a young woman, and although I'm not fully grown or experienced, I'm also not the little girl I once was. Since moving away from my hometown, I have changed SO much and seen SO much and experience SO much. It's made me realize that there are bigger things than who's wearing the same thing as me, or who's texting who behind my back. There are bigger things than dating Louis Nye and skating down the sidewalk in the middle of December in a yellow dress!
I've also learned that just because you feel mature doesn't mean that you are. At 15, I felt like I was 25 and could do anything. I snuck away on Greyhound buses to New York to meet boys. I was entirely conceited, and thought I was the best thing going. I was the prettiest, I had the best hair, I was tall and skinny, I was a model, I had the best clothes, the best everything. I didn't realize that there are more things more important than life, and that life is way too short to be living it like a conceited bitch. I didn't realize it until this year and I'm 20. Yeah, twenty is still a really young age. But most people grow up and out of teenagedom by 18. I was still acting like I was in high school and looked like a complete idiot. I had NO friends and even my friends from childhood weren't talking to me.
I'm really writing this because there are so many girls out there who are like me, and I think it's a very common experience. We need to share our thoughts, experiences, and feelings. Our voices are the most important thing and the only way we can be heard is if we speak out. Girls like this will fall before they can reach any part of success or happiness, because I did. I have made so many mistakes and been so down and out, and it's made me realize the true evils of the world and the true good of the world. Teenage girls need to wise up, but most of them probably won't until they experience what I have.
This has been Jessica. Now I'm outie 3,000! :)
I truly truly love your Teenagers Are Stupid post. Your words, so true and so transparent, really touched my heart. Thank you for sharing a tiny piece of your "stupid teenage" story. It's nice to read content that is real and raw. Your story made me smile. It made me smile because from your writing, it sounds as if you've learned and are in a better place. I know someone who is 21 y.o. and she is STILL in that "stupid teenager" phase. It breaks my heart everyday. Your words gave me hope for her...seriously.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, I wish you the best young blogger. I'm a blogger myself and I must say, you are right, PRACTICE PRACTICE PRACTICE. Stay true to you and you'll go far! :)
Just so you know, I randomly came across your blog via Google. I was attempting to search something which started with the word "the" and all these search suggestions about "The End is Near" popped up. Then for some reason I clicked on your blog. :) Anyway, many blessings to you Jess. Keep blogging.